Ur Voice !!

I forgot the Feeling of hearing ur voice

The joy I had when u were around me

But now u came and i had no choice

but not telling u , to remind me

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remind me of that amazing , wonderful sensation

The feeling that I always have someone who's here
I dreamt with many thoughts to fill my imagination

but they never reached the way i felt when u were near

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I felt that my heart was pulled from my chest

My eyes were closed and let ur words be absorbed

Everything disappeared , but ur voice was left

It makes me drown , and never throw me a robe

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God I wish I had that choice to speak

Understand my words without being told

I've always been to ur love so weak

That seeing u steels my every word

Why !

I never felt those lyrics like now =(


I Can Feel U Near Me , Even Though Ur Far Away
It's not Supposed to Hurt This way , I Need U , More and More Each Day

=( !!!!

Used

I hate that !
I really reaaaaaaly love helping ppl , the best feeling i have when i make a person, especially if they r so close , feeling better even if the betterness was sooooo little. It's just indescribable

But i hate it , when those ppl , act like they don't know me, or just not giving me that face , if they r feeling all good and clean , especially if they r so close =(

am i used? by those ppl , and other ppl?
should i stop helping ? hell no =s
should i stop helping them ? i can't , i just care too much =(

z3lana =(

Letting It Out

Here I am surrounded By Many
Knowing everyone but still AlOnE
My Smile is the 1st thing u c
While a tear is just being born

How To Save a Life =(

This song , is officially my new song ..

When u hear it , i know each one will relate to it , depending on his situation.
But i think it's more touching when u know the true story of this song.



This song was written by Isaac ,the lead singer in The Fray (i forgot his family name lolz) ,about a friend who was a drug addict , his family talked to him to quit , they told him they won't love him anymore if he didn't , well nothing worked , so Isaac was talking to him , and the song starts with that , but then he left him ... The same night, that friend killed him self ..

"Where did i go wrong , i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i could have stayed up with u all night
had a i known , How To Save A Life "

In general , this song talks about not having someone to talk to , to have to deal with ur problems alone , with no one understanding .

"U Begin to Wonder Why U Came "

Under Pressure

I'm , done with it !
I hate this feeling , I hate this time of the year, when the unit exam is so near and u know ur Under Pressure.
I always tell ppl , when it comes to studying , do whatever u can to study.
I'm doing that , i tried staying in Bahrain during weekends, I tried going back to Saudi , I tried staying fel uni during week days , I tried returning home to c what the books r talking about , i tried Starbucks , Dulce , I even once tried studying while skating ...

It ain't WORKING !

I have no idea what to do , with each week the material becomes bigger and the amount of papers that i have to eat , become harder and harder to swallow

I was thinking today , that this feeling i have , I have it before every unit , actually before every exam that ever passed on me .
And what happen usually , I one day feel serious and begin to make it up by studying large amounts in a lil time and i end up with an OK or very OK mark .
Today i was thinking , then what ? !
am i going to spend all my medical studying life like this =s !

I swear I began to get this stupid ideas of quiting the whole damn thing =s ............

i'll just stop talking, don't need any more problems =p

Speachless

I've been trying to express my feeling in the shadow of the stupid situation i've been put in lately , I just couldn't .
I don't remember a time i felt that bad in my life , that whenever i remember what , and who i'm seemingly losing, i swear i can hear a tear screaming up there =( .

The thing is , this salfa doesn't want to end , and its upsides and downs r like that thing elly fel theme parks elly goes up and down till ppl throw up " i have no idea what its called and don't know if my eew explanation fulfilled ur imagination or not =p"

Today for example , started up rough but it's now so calm , but i know calmness won't solve this problem . This problem need a serious discussion sit , so everyone can rid away any hard feeling they're keeping for them selves.

Friendship is built upon trust , honesty and willing to express ur self to each other without any fear . If any of those were missing , the Friend Ship will sink so easily.

I wish things return to the same again , but i don't want this to happen by keeping our feeling inside and not confessing what really bother us about each other .

Allah ys'hl

P.S , i swear i'm good ppl ha =P