2008 Resolutions

Though i don't believe in that , i mean if ur planning to do something u don't have to set a year for it . but i guess it's a good way to put ur self a dead line . and i only work under dead lines.
So i'm gonna put a list , if i done 75% of them i'll be happy
i'll come to check them a year from now etha allah a7yana .
and whoever is reading u can nag on my head till i get some of them done lolz
so let's start


1- Learn to drive before i'm 21 ( before 27-5-2008)
2- Spend more time with the family , less time on line "doing that already (a)"
3- Getting above 75 in year 3 "this is from the 25% i'm planning to ditch =p"
4- Studying at least a full day a week " trying my best to not put it fel 25% =p"
5- Going abroad without my parents " lolz it's a dream =p"
6- Spending less time in the uni doing nothing
7- Trying to get the doctory idea in my head
8- Spending less money here and there =p
9- Be more honest with my self
10- Grow up.

ok then =p
anytime i remember something i'll add it
so far i have to do 7.5 of this =p
wish me luck lolz

Ur Voice !!

I forgot the Feeling of hearing ur voice

The joy I had when u were around me

But now u came and i had no choice

but not telling u , to remind me

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remind me of that amazing , wonderful sensation

The feeling that I always have someone who's here
I dreamt with many thoughts to fill my imagination

but they never reached the way i felt when u were near

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I felt that my heart was pulled from my chest

My eyes were closed and let ur words be absorbed

Everything disappeared , but ur voice was left

It makes me drown , and never throw me a robe

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God I wish I had that choice to speak

Understand my words without being told

I've always been to ur love so weak

That seeing u steels my every word

Why !

I never felt those lyrics like now =(


I Can Feel U Near Me , Even Though Ur Far Away
It's not Supposed to Hurt This way , I Need U , More and More Each Day

=( !!!!

Used

I hate that !
I really reaaaaaaly love helping ppl , the best feeling i have when i make a person, especially if they r so close , feeling better even if the betterness was sooooo little. It's just indescribable

But i hate it , when those ppl , act like they don't know me, or just not giving me that face , if they r feeling all good and clean , especially if they r so close =(

am i used? by those ppl , and other ppl?
should i stop helping ? hell no =s
should i stop helping them ? i can't , i just care too much =(

z3lana =(

Letting It Out

Here I am surrounded By Many
Knowing everyone but still AlOnE
My Smile is the 1st thing u c
While a tear is just being born

How To Save a Life =(

This song , is officially my new song ..

When u hear it , i know each one will relate to it , depending on his situation.
But i think it's more touching when u know the true story of this song.



This song was written by Isaac ,the lead singer in The Fray (i forgot his family name lolz) ,about a friend who was a drug addict , his family talked to him to quit , they told him they won't love him anymore if he didn't , well nothing worked , so Isaac was talking to him , and the song starts with that , but then he left him ... The same night, that friend killed him self ..

"Where did i go wrong , i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i could have stayed up with u all night
had a i known , How To Save A Life "

In general , this song talks about not having someone to talk to , to have to deal with ur problems alone , with no one understanding .

"U Begin to Wonder Why U Came "

Under Pressure

I'm , done with it !
I hate this feeling , I hate this time of the year, when the unit exam is so near and u know ur Under Pressure.
I always tell ppl , when it comes to studying , do whatever u can to study.
I'm doing that , i tried staying in Bahrain during weekends, I tried going back to Saudi , I tried staying fel uni during week days , I tried returning home to c what the books r talking about , i tried Starbucks , Dulce , I even once tried studying while skating ...

It ain't WORKING !

I have no idea what to do , with each week the material becomes bigger and the amount of papers that i have to eat , become harder and harder to swallow

I was thinking today , that this feeling i have , I have it before every unit , actually before every exam that ever passed on me .
And what happen usually , I one day feel serious and begin to make it up by studying large amounts in a lil time and i end up with an OK or very OK mark .
Today i was thinking , then what ? !
am i going to spend all my medical studying life like this =s !

I swear I began to get this stupid ideas of quiting the whole damn thing =s ............

i'll just stop talking, don't need any more problems =p